Dear hurting girl

I am not writing this letter to hurt you or remind you of the dreams that lie hidden and will “apparently” never be recovered. But I am writing to you who needs to rescue the little girl who has become so dormant and sort of non- existent. You know what? It’s high time we go and get her. Or maybe it’s a little too soon because, we need to help the current one until she is ready to fully embrace the old dreaming girl as she comes back to life. Oh I know that sounds a bit fictional but it is possible. We could start by reigniting the fire she had when she was just 12 years old or below that.

When all she thought about was how she was going to rule the world. How the mere thought of being the first female president of her country brought so much joy within her soul. The same courageous girl who was just like Queen Esther with so much beauty and wisdom. The little bold girl who knew insecurities as just another word of the Oxford dictionary or Thesaurus. The one who was so trusting before the defilement robbed her of her happiness. The one who pushed through so much in life because her strength was something of a divine nature.

Now you will notice that I said reignited, because maybe just maybe, you once tried to bring her back to life in your own power. And the world showed you so many reasons of why you needed to put her back in the cave. This time it’s going to be different though, we will go in His strength baby. I am here to remind you of just how precious of a daughter that girl is to her Daddy (God). My prayer for her is that, she will allow God to breathe on her and she will definitely spring back to life.

Dear lovely one, I want us to go and rescue that little girl. We can’t part ways with her because, we need her to meet her Daddy for real this time. It’s actually all over town, they are preaching about it in sanctuaries and they are talking about it on TBN, even on social media and YouTube. That there is a healer in Gilead. He is Jehovah Rephoka, a Greek word which means “healer of our soul”. I want the little girl in you to know Him so that, He can bring about beauty from the ashes. He is really good at that.

All things are new, with the God we serve”.

Unknown

One very famous quote says “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” Girl we have a world to save. We have a purpose to fulfill and a King to live for. Hurting girl to you I say “Talitha kum” because my 5 year old niece looks up to you and she needs to see you get up. And not only that, my little teenage friend is looking at how you handle that issue. Your story could practically be the same words she uses to build her testimony on. So darling girl, I am inviting you to dream again.

Oh no don’t let fear rob you of the ability to dream. That is just one of the weapons of the enemy. Darling girl, today I am declaring over you that no weapon of fear or intimidation forged against you shall prosper. But maybe it ain’t really fear, it’s worry that you have to do this all alone. Girl you are loved way beyond mere words. I am rooting for you, but most importantly heaven is applauding for you. Finally to the hurting girl I am saying, girl get up because you need to dream again.

“Taking the child’s hand, He said [tenderly] to her, “Talitha kum!” —which translated [from Aramaic] means, “Little girl, I say to you, get up!””
‭‭Mark‬ ‭5:41‬ ‭AMP‬‬

PS: Go and listen to Graves into Gardens by Elevation Worship.

Love and Prayers♥️

Matilda.

Vulnerability really heals

Before I started cleaning the house last night, I decided to listen to one of my favorite sermons by my fo’eva favorite preacher SJR, oh how I missed listening to her 😭. I never really go for a looong period of time without listening to her, but Chiiiiile school has been crazy (that is a story for another day though). A few minutes after the sermon finished I found myself seated on my bed thinking about vulnerability. I really don’t know if it’s because this sermon really spoke to me (they always do thou 🥺) or maybe your girl was just in some deep thoughts. Either ways, I want us to just really talk about vulnerability.

According to uncle Google vulnerability is consciously choosing NOT to hide your emotions and intentions from other people. I feel like we are a generation that has become bound by so much fear, that we don’t get to be real with each other because of many things. We remember the unfortunate times we didn’t hide our emotions and we got wounded so badly. Or just the last time we opened up about our issues and people walked away from us, and made it more painful than it was initially. But sadly that has leaked into our relationships with God.

We have become so afraid of being vulnerable with the people that God has put around us, that we sadly carry the same mentality when we come before the Lord (sometimes unconsciously). You know why? Because somehow we think He will also disappoint us like how the other person did. But I want to remind someone that God isn’t like that, He has no flaws. He is a perfect being unlike us humans. He isn’t bound to make mistakes. Or sometimes we hide things from God in the name of “He sees it all, He knows my every thought so why tell Him still?”. Hunnay you got to understand that God is a gentle God, He will never force Himself on anyone. If you don’t invite Him in a situation, He won’t step into it. Because clearly you can solve it yourself and you don’t need Him🤭.

I don’t know know about you, but there where moments in my life were I had things bothering me and if I was asked lemme say by my mentor or even a close friend to tell her everything that was going on, I lied or hid so much from her. Then when I walked away, I was still back at square one with no solved issues. But my point is when you refuse to be really vulnerable you leave no room for God or people to help you, but only for the enemy to continue oppressing you.

“ Refusing to be vulnerable leaves no room for God or people to help you, but only for the enemy to continue oppressing you”.

A Girl after Jesus

There is really something about vulnerability that just gives room for heavenly intervention. I love the fact that we can relate to the characters of the Bible, like in this case we can look at the woman with the issue of blood. I believe because of her vulnerability she was completely healed. The Bible speaks about how this woman came blurting out her whole story when Jesus asked who touched Him. Before that it says “she noticed that she couldn’t remain silent” so she spoke. I believe it takes courage to be vulnerable but, hey we were made to be courageous (Joshua 1:8). After the woman told her whole story in the midst of a crowd of thousands, other versions says Jesus said “Daughter you took a risk trusting me, and now you’re healed and whole. Live well, be blessed.” Jesus did not only honour her courage but, made her whole.

One major thing to really acknowledge is that there were thousands of people surrounding Jesus but this woman still told her story. Oh my word, I am really amazed by her courage because talking about my endless periods, doesn’t look like something I will do in a crowd of people of both genders. But this didn’t bother the lady at all. She had an agenda and it was to get her healing and she got it. I know there are times were we want to really let it all out when we are in the presence of God, but we don’t, because we are afraid of what they might say about us after (lol). I am praying that if that has been you lately. May this woman’s courage and vulnerability be yours in Jesus name.

There are so many perfect examples of vulnerability in the Bible, like the story of Zacchaeus who got his salvation because he had to be vulnerable before Jesus. I can’t help but imagine that it could have costed him his eternity if he worried about his past deeds and people’s opinions so much that he wouldn’t have allowed Jesus to be a guest at his house.

I strongly believe that one of the most beautiful prayers that we can pray is that “Lord help me to be real in front of you, because you are a real God”. Oh and don’t get me wrong beloved I am not encouraging you to go out and get vulnerable with just anyone. No, don’t do that, you must know who to run to when you are at your lowest lest people take advantage of your vulnerability.

Scriptures for this post:

Luke 8:43-48

Luke 19:1-9

“Vulnerability is the most beautiful thing that anyone can possess, not just a woman but anyone. Because it means there is no off limits

Sarah Jakes Roberts

Written with so much love❤️

Bunny

A little girl changed my view….

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We really have been sleeping so much on this blog hey, but I guess it gets so busy. I have a story though, it’s going to be beautiful☺️.

The other day I went to do my hair and while I was almost done a little cute girl walked in with her mother. OMG!!! She walked in so majestically, I am not even exaggerating guys. That little girl portrayed such a confidence that I will need in my next life (laughs). She asked for her mother’s phone and started showing the hairdresser the hairstyle that she wanted and to our surprise we found out that, she was actually the one who chose it, as in googled for the pic bro.

Now I know this is like a common thing for kids to do, but this particular child amazed me. She didn’t want any other hairstyle other than what she chose initially. This is what she wanted;

That hairstyle she wanted is kinda for older people (I think) and so the hairdresser and her mother started to convince her in making the braids a little shorter and add beads at the ends. But the little cutie refused. And I was like oh my gosh, I love her energy. In that moment the Holy Spirit started ministering to me about not settling for less. And I was really blown away.

I began to really think about how we can pray for something and have crazy faith that the Lord will bring it to a physical manifestation. But because of impatience and the noise from the world we choose to settle for less than what we believed God for. For all the times we settled for counterfeit situationships because we grew weary in waiting for God’s very best.

Mrs Redrose Phiri once said that, there isn’t anything attractive about the enemy’s creativity. He will wrap a stone in a gold plastic and give it to you, instead of handing you pure gold (I have paraphrased). I pray that we will be a people that will never settle for less because, God will always show us more. It’s going to take us patience to wait on the Lord sometimes but may we never grow weary lovies, because patience is a virtue. Just like the little girl who didn’t want to settle for another hairstyle. May the Lord grant us courage like that of the little four year old girl. It’s so sad that I didn’t get her name but I was brave enough to ask her mom for a selfie.

Dear Lord?

Thank you for using such a little girl to remind us that we should never settle for less. I pray that we are a generation whose eyes are fixed on you constantly. That we may be so conscious of your presence that we won’t miss the remainders that you put in front of us everyday, no matter how seemingly small they may be. I pray for an ability to stay still and wait for you to unfold your promises and answers for us. Thank you for you are a caring Father, may you help us to not be intimidated by the lies of the enemy and help us not to fall for his counterfeits either.

In the name of Jesus.

Amen.

“For God has proved his love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his Son. And since God freely offered him up as the sacrifice for us all, he certainly won’t withhold from us anything else he has to give.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:32‬ ‭TPT‬‬

S/O to my beautiful sister who is celebrating her birthday today.I love you Jinny. May you never settle for less. You are a whole queen 👸 ❤️.

Xoxo

Bunny

Relationship Vs Religion

We have earthly friends, then we have Jesus our heavenly friend🥺❤️.

Happy 2020☺️🎉

I remember when I was a baby Christian people used to talk about being in relationship with God and I used to wonder like what is that? This other time a very close friend of mine spoke about how God is our husband and I can’t lie to you I thought she was a lunatic😂 (sorry friend). However, as time went on and I got serious with my walk with God i noticed that it’s really true:

“For your husband is your Maker, The LORD of hosts is His name; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel, Who is called the God of the whole earth.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭54:5‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I come from a religious background, where I used to go to church every Sunday and pray only when I go to sleep because I was afraid of witches and ghosts lol, but not when I wake up, because well who cared? As long as I was out of bed and I went to school then, it was okay. If I can remember well, the only time of opening the Bible was when the pastor stood on the pulpit to read the scripture for that particular Sunday and that was it. I lived half my life believing that God was a supreme being (which He is though) or rather a high power above. But, I never really thought that we could talk to Him passionately and build a relationship with Him.

But you see when you give your life to Christ you, you declare that you are saying goodbye to the world and entering a fo’eva relationship with Jesus. You become His friend and walk with Him (God the Holy Spirit) for life. I look at it as a couple saying their vows and promising to stick by each other in front of a huge crowd. Just like how couples bid farewell to certain things like being “besties” with people of the opposite gender. Believers are ought to do the same thing as friends of God, they must say goodbye to their old lifestyles.

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:1-2‬ ‭NLT‬‬

When you enter into a relationship with God you begin to do things in a new way. You talk to God everywhere and whenever and not only when you are going to bed. Also reading the word of God becomes an everyday thing and not just grabbing it out from the back of a car on Sundays. Prophet Benny Hinn in his book Good Morning Holy Spirit speaks about how he used to speak to the Holy Spirit as his very own companion. He would speak to him in his car and when he was among people (quite a good relationship).

The main reason Jesus was sent to die on the cross, was to redeem us from our filthy past and reconcile us back to God.He is a gracious gift that became sin for us so that we can become righteous before God. When this happened we can then stand before God and make our petitions through His name (Jesus).

Us praying through the name of Jesus shows how filthy and unworthy we are to stand in the presence of God. But because we use a holy name we can come before Him and make our declarations.

Unknown

I don’t know about you but I used to really feel guilty when someone tells me that they are fasting and I am not. But when this happened a few weeks ago, the Lord reminded me about making sacrifices. See when you genuinely say yes to Jesus, you are going to make sacrifices. Being in a relationship with God is going to cost you time, hangouts, friendships and a whole lot more. I am so compelled to think that the “a whole lot more” caught your attention. Sorry to throw it in your face like that but I guess it’s high time we stop complaining of what being in relationship with God will cost us, if we are willing to go to all extents for our “boothangs” then we must also be willing to go all the way for God hunnay.

I used to feel bad when someone tells me that they are fasting and I am not. But then I remembered that fasting is about making a sacrifice to Jesus. A sacrifice to a very dear friend.

Girl after Jesus

Our God is such a relational being and being in relationship with Him has always been His primarily idea. The Bible calls Him a friend that sticks closer than a brother ( Proverbs 18:24). After preaching the good news, many pastors would always ask if there is anyone who wants to get in relationship with God by saying the sinner’s prayer, because everything begins with being in a relationship. The Bible is full of so many promises, but those can only be attained when you get in relationship with God, when you become His child.

“But to as many as did receive and welcome Him, He gave the right [the authority, the privilege] to become children of God, that is, to those who believe in (adhere to, trust in, and rely on) His name— who were born, not of blood [natural conception], nor of the will of the flesh [physical impulse], nor of the will of man [that of a natural father], but of God [that is, a divine and supernatural birth—they are born of God—spiritually transformed, renewed, sanctified].”
‭‭John‬ ‭1:12-13‬ ‭AMP‬‬

One quote I once saw said and I quote “ God created each person with a heart to be in relationship with Him” and maybe today is the day you have to decide to take one step and truly get in relationship with your Father. He has always been waiting for you with arms wide open🤗. Perhaps you are reading this and you have never made a decision to make Jesus your Lord and Savior. And you really want to get in relationship with Him. Don’t worry, I got you boo, please say this prayer:

Dear Lord?

Thank you for sending your me your very gracious gift Jesus Christ.Today I recognize you brought Him to die on the cross and reconcile me back to you.I believe with my heart that Jesus is the Son of the One living God, that He died and He rose from death on the third day.I invite you Lord to come and make your home within my heart and make me your child.Thank you that,I will not turn my back on you,but I will walk with you everyday of my life.Thank you for writing my name in the book of life and making me a new creation.

In the name of Jesus I prayed.

Amen.

Congratulations beloved, today heaven rejoices over you🤸🏾‍♀️🎉. I would love to encourage you to find a bible believing church, so that you may get to know Jesus more.

“Therefore if anyone is in Christ [that is, grafted in, joined to Him by faith in Him as Savior], he is a new creature [reborn andrenewed by the Holy Spirit]; the old things [the previous moral and spiritual condition] have passed away. Behold, new things have come [because spiritual awakening brings a new life].”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:17‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I love you❤️

Matilda.

My 3 am thoughts

Words flow effortlessly when the world is quiet. And that is after 3 am.

You know it’s quite weird how someone would be up at 3 a.m. blogging or trying to come up with a piece of writing at such a “God forsaken hour” as some put it. But hey here I am, on such a chilly morning sipping on my coffee, while trying to put my 2019 in words. This year has been one of a kind hey. It came and stretched me and showed me what it really means to draw strength from God.

You know how they say don’t say certain prayers until you are really ready to be tested in such a manner? Hehee I tell you they weren’t kidding chiiiile. This year one of my prayers has been “Lord stretch me until I look like the person you placed in my mother’s womb”. I didn’t understand the depth of that prayer, until the stretch came and I found myself running away from God even, because homegirl was confused. You know that time when you think “oh yes I have it under control💪” and then you notice that it actually has you more than you got it?😂 Yes I was at that place for vacay this year. But the beauty in having an anchor who is in control of the universe, is that you can always run back to Him. So time and time again, I was the prodigal son. I found myself running back to the arms of my Father time after time.

You came running down my prodigal road You came running with a ring and a robe Grace is the collision on the way back home With the arms of a Father who won’t let go.”

Verse from “Abba I belong to you” by Jonathan David and Mellisa Helser

I want to highlight some major things that happened in 2019. Oh I am not saying major because they were good moments. No actually they weren’t but these where moments where I was left with no option but to cry out to God. And not just mere crying but a cry of desperation with knees shaking, tears in my eyes and such an ache in my heart oh plus the headaches and insomnia the list is endless.

At the beginning of this year, I had to fight with depression and that season had taught me how to name God for myself. I got to call Him a Wonderful Counsellor. And here is why; sometimes when the pain was indescribable that I couldn’t even understand it myself. He was there to soothe my weary soul. During this time, I had someone who held my hand and I call her Mommy Jules ( I bless the good Lord for your life😭❤). But even when I couldn’t utter the words of the pain that caged my heart so that she could atleast understand, God understood it all. He is an all knowing God🙌.

The biblical meaning of the name Matilda is strength in battle.

You are probably asking yourself why I put up that picture with such a caption hey? But I love it so much because just like how they say all pictures have a story behind them, it has one too. I remember vividly that, that picture was taken on one Sunday afternoon after church. But funny enough how I spent the previous night crying myself to sleep. But I still dragged myself to church and successfully faked a smile for that picture. I know with no single of a doubt that my strength in that season was from God. Or maybe I could brag a little bit about the Hebrew meaning of my name lol, I am kidding. But my point is, maybe as we navigate through the spheres of life we must get the real meaning of our names. It will help us when it’s too stormy.

“Everytime someone calls your name, they are calling out your destiny into existence.”

Unknown

Sometime this year I had also had to battle with rejection. One thing that I learnt about rejection is that it really stinks. I didn’t like the way I was at this time. I was full of bitterness, unforgiveness, hatred, anger and shame. And that is the thing about rejection when it comes it brings its whole crew with it. It makes you not believe in the goodness of people. Oh and not to forget, it will make you doubt people’s love for you and even God’s love. It makes you think you aren’t good enough but hell no baby, I am here to remind you that, you are a thousand times more than ENOUGH.

Don’t even allow the enemy to intimidate you with his lies. After all that is all he does. He lies, the bible calls him the father of all lies. To someone who is reading this and has been rejected before, I am sorry that it happened to you. I know it gets pretty messy but hold unto hope and look unto Jesus.

“God will often allow you to be rejected, so that He can represent you”.

Pastor Mpangwe

I still have so much to say about the year 2019, but I am still learning. I really am. Hello the year hasn’t bid us farewell yet so girly has got stuff to learn still😂. Otherwise the caffeine is slowly getting to my head also lol.

Xoxo❤

Bunny.

The uncertainties

I watched him as he fought with his emotions strongly, even when he pushed back his unshed tears. Funny how they were not so visible but I just knew that his heart was bleeding on the inside of him, I could almost picture it in my mind.

As the phone rang and the conversation grew deeper, I gave him a quick glance and I notice that he draws in a different composure while shrugging his shoulders. But I remind him that it’s not always going to be like this. Oneday he is going to learn how to survive through it all and no he will not only survive but he will thrive in the wilderness.

He sometimes just bears with the uneasiness that comes with listening to the whole conversation. Other times he runs to the bathroom and cries to himself. As soon as the conversation ends I run to him. Oh now the fight was to open the bathroom door because, he always locks it. And I noticed he did that with his heart too, he shut everyone out. But for some reasons we have quite a strong bond, I wish you could call us “besties” but no we are more than that, we have grown to be the best of siblings so he would always open the door for me. I would come in and pray with him.

I began to encourage him that, I know the fear of being in jail is making you regret doing it. But to hell with that, because He who created you can fling open the prison gates. He did that for Paul and Silas so nothing will stop Him from doing it all over again. I told him that the rumours will eventually stop, because it is God who vindicates him.

He tells me that sometimes he lies in his bed at night and cries out to the lover of his soul, as he asks for new strength to push through the next day. Because I believe at that point all he wanted was for the pain to end or to just you know, survive. At least that is what he thought, no actually that is what the stinging pain made him see. But again, the lover of his soul had a different perspective, a thought that varies and an opposite vision. He loved him too much to leave him like that.

I told him of how he needed to be strong and take ownership of the mistakes that happened because of him. And remind him, that he is going to also be brave enough to forgive them and most importantly forgive himself too. But he started questioning his abilities to do that at the same time. I recall, that in one of our conversations he said “Forgiving them is easy, but doing that for myself is hard, because I have to put the blame on myself”. Oh how that shattered my heart. But I reminded him of the confusion and uncertainty that comes with becoming. I prayed that even if his tender heart assumed stuff, may the Lord help him not believe in the lies he once pondered on.

Becoming can be very confusing, that it might even look like you are just really not growing into the person God created you to be. But I want to believe that in a season where the larva is transitioning into an adult caterpillar, it gets confused too. So I told him that “Bro just be kind to yourself and be patient with yourself too, because you are simply transitioning”.

Pastor Perpetual Paswani❤🙌

If I had the privilege of talking to anyone who is in a process of transitioning, I would tell them to just seat in the oven until the potter is done working on them. Oh boy, I do know that it gets pretty hot in there, but just be still beloved. When it’s all over you are going to thank yourself for not rushing the process. Today be reminded that the lover of your soul loves you too much to leave you in a mess.

Disclaimer: This post has made up metaphors and hidden figures.

Yet, O Lord , You are our Father; We are the clay, and You our Potter, And we all are the work of Your hand.
Isaiah 64:8 AMP

Xoxo❤

Bunny

A letter to Daddy Noah

“I didn’t know sickness could fling you away to eternity Dad”. I said this to myself, as I began to neetle on the inside. Death ain’t pretty. And it will never be.

I vividly remember that at around 3 a.m on the 20th of November 2019 (oh what a fateful morning💔), I took my books to study and I checked my whatsapp messages.

And then I saw it, it was right there, the text that said the Lord has called you home. I am so mad at death. Yes I know that life is short, but what never crossed my mind was death will have the guts to rob you away from us. At least not you Dedhi. I know this sounds so selfish, but don’t we all feel like that? Like death really chose the wrong person? Death isn’t fair 💔.

I hoped that you will get better. That you will come back to church and testify of God’s healing power. Damn we prayed for healing, we declared and believed it. But our prayers were not answered, so I am left asking did we pray amiss? Oh people speak of resurrection from death? I am still asking couldn’t you be brought back?

Wondered why they all love their parents in the Lord? But now I see it. The weight of death isn’t bearable. As I sat on the bed, the whys came rushing in like a flood. How was church going to feel like without you Dad? That emptiness scrapped the deep core of my heart. The thought of not having a male figure for a spiritual parent shuttered my heart.

We had lost our crowns to the world, to insecurities, to shame and to all sorts of things. But you made sure to call us higher than we thought we would ever be. You called us your princes and princesses. You gave us back our lost crowns. That affirmation that came with being reminded of royalty pushed fear and shame back to hell where they belong.

Yours was too brief Daddy💔

I walked in church yesterday, but you didn’t show up, not that you were supposed to but, I just wanted to see you I guess, or even a glimpse of your consistent smile. But i didn’t see you, my heart just needed another confirmation that you weren’t really here. I continued to hope, but I didn’t see you walk up on the altar to lead prayer or sing the ALMI anthem. You just didn’t😭.

Yesterday felt a little bit different hey, it really did. There was a peace that filled my heart. I guess it was the same peace that Jesus promised that “no human mind can fathom it” . I am hurt but I am reminded that God doesn’t leave His children unattended to. Now more than ever I feel a real transition. I just pray that we will run with the vision. That we may live out your legacy, because I know that this would have made you smile, or rather make you smile. Not sure about the appropriate one to use at this instance.

Daddy you are gone, but in my heart you still live. My mind and heart are wandering like really wandering. But may they not cause me to question what the Lord did, you ran your race and you finished really strong. Thank you for pouring into our lives, but most importantly thank you for redefining fatherhood to us.

I am a real life princess, because Dad told me so.

I maybe still have a lot of questions, oh lemmi really come clean I do have a lot of them actually . But God doesn’t keep quiet hey, He is living. He gives answers so maybe I should continue seeking. The fact that I am writing a letter to you, looks really weird (not to me though) because you are not going to read it. But like I keep saying, the pain becomes a little lighter to carry when I write about it so, this is a lettter to you Dhedhi.

Rest Easy Dr Bishop Noah Paswani💔

With so much love❤

Your Princess Matilda.

Love them to the point of the cross

I am probably going to be very vulnerable in this post, but that is okay. The Lord brought to me two scenarios that happened in two consecutive years. One was in 2017 when I got in a disagreement with Aunty Mekenzie and the other one was in 2018 when someone said they felt like I hated them💔. Oh let’s not get a bit judgemental 😂 I have repented and I have learnt. Stay with me I am gonna bless you🙌

So the agreement with aunt Mekenzie was on a religious view and someone said to me that, just love your aunt it will change everything. And I remember I got so offended like “Bro you think I don’t love her? I loooove her”. The other instance happened when I saw so much potential in someone and how passionate the person wanted to be on fire for God though, the world was screaming out her name. So your girl wanted to help in her walk with Christ but, I started talking about the “thou shall not” instead of introducing her to the grace of God first. I am glad when she told me that she felt I despised her, I reassured her that I actually don’t, apologised and we said a prayer together.

See, that is the issue with most of us. We want to introduce Christ to people yes, which is good but we don’t start from the point of Calvary. We make it look like God is such a big and scary God but He isn’t. The bible says He is merciful, compassionate and filled with unfailing love and He is slow to get angry. He is really a gentle God🙌

“If we can love people to the cross, then God is capable of convicting them because we don’t know the plans He has for their lives, how He can use them and how He is gonna use everything to work out for their good.

-Sarah Jakes Roberts

I believe if we can love people we can win so many souls for God. The world offers a certain kind of non-judmental environment for people. But we as the body of Christ we have sadly become so judmental that people think they have to attain a level of perfection before coming home. Calvary was never about perfection or beauty. Jesus came to save the lost, because it is the people that we have called the “outcasts” that need to be saved. We really need to put down our guns as the church, I say this with all humility.

Love is the greatest weapon❤

It’s funny how I got so offended, when I was told to love my aunt. And that is the thing with fighting battles the wrong way, simple things will piss you off even a mere rebuke will look like an attack. We cannot evangelize to people about God without loving them. God is love so when we preach without love,what God are we talking about? A god maybe?

“Let me give you a new command: Love one another. In the same way I loved you, you love one another. This is how everyone will recognize that you are my disciples—when they see the love you have for each other.”
John 13:34‭-‬35 MSG

We should pray for God to ignite a love for others on the inside of us before we start proclaiming His beautiful name to them. Love is God’s nature, it is who He is. We need to let that love nature of our Father manifest in us, because we say He lives on the inside of us. I believe we can truly love, we need to just be ignited to love.I keep saying ignited, because the love in us can be so dormant covered under so much hurt and pain. You know why? Because life is always happening to us and sometimes we are afraid to love people. But the bible says we can do all things through Christ who gives us strength, which I belive includes loving people too.

And may the Lord start a faith and a love that is so deep in us🙏

The name used in this post has been changed for confidential purposes.

Cheers to Love❤

Matilda

Identity issues

So lately I have been having a lot of acne situation going on, in my face. Like I would get things that would introduce themselves as “just pimples” then boom in the middle of their stay they would decide to change their identity into abscess. This post is beginning to sound more like a skin care thing or rather even disgusting like who talks about pimples and abscesses on a Christian blog? I am sorry but this ain’t skin talk or anything, we need to address identity issues, because unfortunately most of us suffer from that.

It’s quite funny how one morning you can look at your reflection in the mirror and really believe that you are fearfully and wonderfully made and it can change within a blink of an eye. Someone once said ladies can look at flowers admire them and think that “wow God’s creation is quite beautiful” but then they will look at their reflection and think they are ugly, yet it is the same God who has created both of them (i have paraphrased).

Sadly though, sometimes the battle is just within our minds. We compare ourselves to other people and begin to feel so unworthy. But today be reminded that the same peculiar beauty that you see in every other person is the same beauty that lies in you.

Stop comparing yourself to them.You are beautiful because God made you beautiful.

Many of us are at times sure about our identity until someone passes a funny comment, and then we begin to doubt in the beauty we once believed we portrayed. See the pimples suddenly turned into things that looked like abscesses maybe because of the dust or any other thing they came in contact with, I have no idea though 😭. But my point is because of certain environments and the people we are exposed to our insecurities begin to fuel up at times. Beloved today I want to tell you that no matter what people have said about you DO NOT believe them, it is the Lord who has the final say over your life. So desire not to be defined by people or surroundings but by the one who has created you. He has placed you far above rubies.

There are certain thoughts that I have termed as “anti-christs” because they are against the word of God, insecurities are one of those. Those things are not in any way from God, they contradict everything about Him. See God in Jeremiah 29:11 says that:

“For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord , ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
AMP

The Hebrew word for peace is shalom, so if the thoughts that you have are not of the shalom of God,then they are not from Him and because they contradict His word about you, they are the anti-christs.

It is not God’s desire for us to not have peace, the bible speaks of how He keeps in perfect peace those whose thoughts are fixed on Him ( Isaiah 26:3). Today keep your focus on the Creator of the universe.

Also just remember that you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God.The bible in the book of Genesis speaks of how He looked at His creation and He thought it was marvelous in His eyes. You are His creation and such a precious jewel in the eyes of your Father.

You are a masterpiece crafted by the same hands that created the heavens.

Take time and listen to:

Peace by Amanda Cook.

God’s not done with you by Tauren Wells.

Sending you all my Bunny love❤

Be where Jesus is 🙌

So someone who is a consistent reader has been pushing me to write about something, because it has been a while. I wish I could start with all those “I haven’t posted in a long time”, or “Did you miss me?” kind of things but naah, ain’t gonna do that. Lemmi tell you a story instead……😛

So the other day I was on a bus coming from church going back home, then I saw an advert for a witch doctor. It listed so many things that they can help you with, but one that specifically caught my attention was the one of apparently “passing your exams” not that I want to be helped though, naah boo I got Jesus in my corner I am all good. This post however is not about the witch doctors, I promise I will not bash on them.

This post is on the subtle ways of the enemy, someone once said that even the enemy’s creativity isn’t very attractive. He will present you with a stone that is wrapped in a gold plastic instead of real gold. And honestly when I read that advert I felt that way, child of God if a mere human being can make you pass your exams. I highly doubt that they will be able to sustain you in the board room or the theatre. How long are you going to keep your acquired skills though? Not for far too long I guess. You know why? Because then you will have to sustain yourself and that is weary. The Lord is only a sustainer of every good work that He has begun, meaning whatever you get out of His will you will unfortunately have to sustain it yourself.

Being confident of this that He who has begun a good work in you will see it to completion until the day of Christ Jesus”.

Philippians 1:6 NKJV

While we are at sustaining things, let’s shed a little light on those relationships we get ourselves into without consulting the Lord😂. Just because he is cute and he gives you all sorts of butterflies it doesn’t mean that he is theee one. Oh yes he can even be a church boy, but enquire of the Lord first it will save you from all unnecessary heartbreaks. Sarah Jakes Roberts said and I quote “when it gets difficult get back to the revelation”. So if there was no revelation I don’t know what will keep us going. The bible in the book of Proverbs 29:18 that where there is no revelation, people run wild. Seek God first beloved.

See the enemy isn’t your friend, he only wants to kill,steal and destroy everything that is connected to you. It is the Lord who gives you a life full of abundance. Make sure that you don’t by any chance fall prey to the tactics of the enemy.

The enemy won’t come to you with horns and a tail. He will come disguised as an angel or much more worse than that he will come written on an advert that seem to be really attractive. So we ought to be really careful with what we chase after. Beloved if it doesn’t involve God, then it should exclude you.

P.S Today pray for discernment.

Love you❤